Goodbye to 2021 and Hello to 2022!

Man, 2021 was one for the books! But not in a bad way. Of course, there were some ups and downs, but I cannot complain. I made it to see another year, so I am blessed and highly favored. Last year's focus was all about growth, solitude, and building. Gosh, I learned so much about myself; it is crazy. Yet, it is amazing because I have grown mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I have even healed parts of myself that I did not know existed by being vulnerable, feeling, talking, praying, and trusting myself to go through every wave versus switching off my emotions.

To be honest, I was very good at being a light switch because I did not get myself entangled in emotions that made me vulnerable. I started learning how to master my feelings over ten years ago because I honestly could not handle them. When I was mad, I got furious to the point that I would blackout as a child, and when I got hurt. I got hurt to the extent that I would feel like my heart was breaking, as if I was having a heart attack. I loved wholeheartedly and permanently when I loved someone, which made me gullible, naïve, and weak, causing me to hold onto people that should not have been held.

So, my biggest fear was whether I could handle the emotions of being vulnerable and loving again. I naturally wore my heart on my sleeve; I cared about people and injustices, and it never ended well for me when I tapped into my feelings. But when I left Michigan, I promised myself I would start taking risks and stepping outside my comfort zone. Therefore, being stuck in an emotionless bubble would not serve me anymore. I had to start trusting that I was strong enough to deal with certain emotions. Thankfully, this year taught me that I am.

I will not lie; I had some challenging moments, which were hard at times, but I quickly realized that I was stronger than I gave myself credit for. Ultimately, I was really proud of myself because, over the last few years, it had become incredibly important to tap back into my emotions and settle down one day. I began my journey by letting go of meaningless relationships and creating healthy ones with boundaries. While manifesting who I wanted to be, the energy I wanted around me, and the traits I wanted in a partner. My celibacy and healing followed to ensure that I loved myself adequately and obtained the right tools to love another person properly.

I never knew what it truly meant to be vulnerable until I stood naked in front of you. —S.M.

My life is not for the faint-hearted. It revolves around my career and kids. Who have health issues and special needs. Therefore, nothing in my household is easy, nor will it ever be. Consequently, I need someone capable and willing to weather the storms that will arise with me. Overall, 2021 showed me what I wanted, who I am, and what I can do and be. With that being said, I am ready to take on 2022! I manifest a healthy body, friendships, relationships, love, and success this year! What about you?